My workplace convinces me Jon Stewart was right, Bullshit is everyywherrrre… whatever it is I think I see, becomes a tootsie rooo…..ummm BullShit!!! to me. !!!! arghhh (i’m dating myself when I bring up that tune? I loved that commercial for some reason lol)
anyways every corner of that office, everyone/thing is infused with a varying amount of bullshit.
Something must be in the water cooler, because I find it very odd when I look around, how others can know the criminal activity going on, but remain cool with everything. i guess like how the bully on the playground gets away with everything.. stay on the bully’s team. Because the other side is always losing. The business world is so corrupt and so wrong.
I’m the idiot that cares and gets stressed out. I’m a idealistic fool to want justice for all. I’ll describe more later when I’m not so worked up about it. when u get to the point your stomach starts to rumble from hunger, that’s when you know it’s time to wake up when you haven’t even gone to bed yet.
random thoughts for the day:
baby deer are one of the sweetest creatures on earth
I feel like I’m fitting in pretty well at work, and people seem to think I’m a lot younger than I am (someone today guessed 19...dang). That gives me hope that maybe, just MAYBE, I will fit in at college, if I keep my age under wraps until people get to know me? I have to admit, I’m pretty self conscious about being what’s considered a “mature student” and being a few/several years older than most of the other students that will be living in campus.
Fitting in has always been important to me because I was bullied so much when I was younger (especially in elementary school and junior high). Highschool wasn’t AS bad but I definitely noticed that I had a constant concern and awkwardness about being unliked or not fitting in. I think that’s why I didn’t do a lot of partying or anything in University, because I was so worried that I didn’t fit in, etc. My mom has it in her head that I’m going to live the Hollywood version of college life this time around, and seems to want me to. I think, I mean, I know that she wants what’s best for me, and for me to feel fulfilled but it feels like she will be pushing me towards socialization, and I’m not entirely sure that I’m comfortable with that notion, or at least, not in a major way.