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However I should still purchase a larger bikini top for peace of mind and better coverage lol
Anywayyyyy I will be picking up Vanessa in approximately 5 hours kthx goodfuckingbai
alsoooo we're going to Busch Gardens immediately afterward so my poor babylove is going to be exhausted lololol
arriving at the airport with a Java Monster for her, for sure.
mostly of me and Jen but whatevs
So anyway I'm pretty sure I forgot to mention that this was the most emotional ADTR concert Jen and I have ever been to. Our song is "Have Faith in Me" and we always hold each other throughout that song when they play it. Sometimes Jen tears up but this time I look at her and she's fucking bawling and then I start crying and then I don't stop crying and we don't stop holding each other for the entire show. And I'm just like "I can't fucking believe you're making me cry right now" lol and she's like "It just hit me that we're not going to be living five minutes away from each other for the first time since we were 11" and yeah everything about moving just fucking sucks haha so much crying involved
but yes here are some pictures lol
shots before adtr:
Our ADTR picture =))))
lol this is my face immediately after we met ADTR:
Our autographs:
pit style
I think this is right after we first started crying:
I found this picture on Jannus Live's facebook:
And this is during ADTR's confetti finale. I know it's blurry but I think you can definitely tell I've been crying:
okay so now two pictures of me and Harry from Friday. Unfortunately the one he looks mad cute in is not the one I look mad cute in. #life
So I know you guys see in that picture of him being mad cute the fucking X on his hand and we all know Harry is not straight edge so now is the time to admit to everyone that doesn't already know that Harry isn't 21 yet and I am a pedophile :| He'll be 21 in December which makes him 6 months younger than Lou :|
When I first met Harry he was about 17 and I had assumed he was my age. He acted way more mature than most people I knew my age anyway, plus he always seemed to be on my wavelength so it just made sense to me we were pretty close in age. We became better and better friends and when he had a birthday, I asked him how old he turned and he said "18" and I swear to fuck I thought he was fucking with me. Sean Norman told me he had thought Harry was our age as well for the longest time but nope we were both fooled and Harry is just young as fuck with wisdom beyond his years.
When we were sitting in his car in my driveway on Saturday night he said "If we had hooked up when we were younger, I could've so easily snuck into your window." And then I replied, "If we had hooked up when we were younger, I would have been arrested." lmfaooo didn't Against Me! phrase it best? "They keep getting younger don't they baby . . ."
Whatever, Jen says I am a "cougar" and not a "pedophile."
All the world’s a stage when all the world’s at war
I’ve seen your steely rage, you know what you’re fighting for
Your life is yours to give, giving you the strength to serve
Your soul was straight, unbending, til life threw you a curve
They say a thief crept in while you were still at rest
She had a magic key; stole your heart from out your chest
Softly without waking, she knelt to kiss your head
Then she turned to break the idol at the foot of your bed
Soldier, oh soldier,
You can’t hold fire without burning your clothes
Soldier, oh soldier
We told you ‘bout the thorns, but you only saw the rose
And now I have my sackcloth, I have my ashes, too
Wearing clothes of mourning while my soldier fades from view
Taking you like cancer, but you’re helpless to resist
I’m begging you to answer, choose to live or just exist
And the thief crept in while you were still at rest
She had the magic key; stole your heart from out your chest
Softly without waking, she knelt to kiss your head
Then turned to break the idol at the foot of your bed
Soldier, oh soldier,
You can’t hold fire without burning your clothes
Soldier, oh soldier
We told you ‘bout the thorns, but you only saw the rose
Soldier, oh soldier
You can’t hold fire, but you only saw the rose
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*sigh* A rather difficult thing to watch. Soldier was a long-time friend of mine - I've never known the like of him for strength, protectiveness, or righteous anger. Had a very, very clear sense of what he knew was worth fighting for, and he WOULD fight for it. We were in theater together, he's a much better actor than I am onstage, and much truer to his heart than I am in real life.
He has a philosophy that we go through trials in life so that we can better help other people get through those same trials. When he came home from the Army, he got deeply involved with a girl back home. Rather questionable character, but she was pretty much his world.
At some point, she realized that she was his world, and didn't want that kind of status, so she broke up with him.
When she left, he folded in, his entire character just collapsed. After a very explosive meltdown, my Soldier was gone. Same face, same memories, but just going through the motions of life - didn't care about anything anymore.
Sometimes I get mad at her, but more often I'm only deeply saddened over who this splendid warrior became. Somewhere in me, I have to admit that I'm still hoping that he'll get himself back together, but I can't help him. This part is so hard to see.
I wrote these lyrics and melody about six months ago, haven't talked with him since then...think I just need to let the song go, part of letting him go.
I have Lou shit to blog about also but later later later gotta go fucking work at my stupid job
http://www.nycore.org/?post_type=post&p=2956
I can't even express to you how wonderful this is. Just find a half hour and watch her.
i don't think buildings are schools....schools are the communities within the buildings.
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