We were planning on moving in together after my sublet ended.
I just graduated from the university we both went to, and move to his city, get a tiny bachelor "apartment", and he said he wanted to live with me.
HIS words. He said he wanted to move in with me. Sure, he didn't mention until later that he wanted to live with roommates. He was going to ask a friend of his who's moving in with her boyfriend, but I guess she doesn't want to.
So I asked if he wanted to move in with roommates, and he asked if I had found a place yet. So then I found one and asked about going to a viewing and he tells me he doesn't want to live together. This was several days ago, so I had like, 4 days to find a place alone. Luckily I found one for short term, so I havr two months to figure out what the hell I'm going to do. So he's going to live with his parents and save up money for school next year and I am going to fork out a ton of rent. Not exactly fair. Like what the fuck. I'm so fucking pissed. So I send him a text calling him too afraid to commit to anything, and that he'll be living with his parents past 30. I turned off my phone because I didn't want to see his reply. Also partially terrified of his reply.
I turn my phone back on and all he said was "What a livid text. Good luck with the move"
Then he calls me on Friday and asks if I found a place, I said I had a viewing, and he tells me he can't help me move because he's going away for the weekend. How fucking convenient!
No word all weekend.
I just moved in today, with no help except the guy who's house I'm moving in to, who luckily was able to help me with his car. Otherwise I would have had to cab/bus across town.
He calls me a few minutes ago and asks how the move went. Ignoring what happened. I ventured a question: what would happen if it didn't go well? He just replied "I dunno".
Am I overreacting? I have talked to my friends and they all say he's being an asshole and that was totally a dick move. I really think I have taken a lot of shit from him, that most people wouldn't put up with.
What if I couldn't find a short term lease? What if I couldn't find a place at all? Not like he gives a flying shit!
So I mulled over the whole weekend about what to do about the situation. How can he disrespect me so much? I knew I wouldn't be getting an apology. Would this be it? Would I break up with him?
When we were talked a few weeks ago he said that I bring out the worst in him. Now. How the FUCK can he say that? How can he blame me for HIS behavior? Basically blaming everything on me. No. The way he acts is his decision. He is his own person and he is responsible for the things he says and does, NOT me. He is not about to blame ME for the way HE treats me. That is simply not fair.
I just don't know whether we can get past this or not. What the fuck does he even want? It seems he thinks he can do whatever the hell he wants. I don't know why I care about him so much. Love makes you stupid. A relationship will never work if one person isn't invested in it...
Meron akong kwento
Tungkol sa dalawang tao
Na pinagtagpo ng tadhana
Sa panahing hindi inaasahan.
Sa simula ay pangiti-ngiti lang
Nang lumaon ay panay na ang kwentuhan
Ng mga samu’t-saring bagay.
Mga nakatatawa at nagpapa-isip,
Mga pangarap at panaginip.
Matuling lumilipas ang oras
Pag magkasama sila.
Hindi nila alintana ang init ng araw
O ang malakas na pag-ulan –
Ang mahalaga ay naroon ang isa’t-isa
Kahit pa nga kung saan man yan.
Malimit silang nagtatawanan
At kung minsan mang hindi magkasundo,
Ay madali ring nagagawan ng paraan.
Para silang yin at yang,
Pagsikat at paglubog ng araw,
Pintura at putting canvas –
Pwede ring beer at sisig,
Tapsilog at kape,
Longanisa at suka.
Sa medaling salita, sila ay perpektong magsama –
Pinaghalong tamis at pait,
Asim at alat,
Anghang at sarap.
Ito ay isang kwentong wala pang ending.
May simula na at gitna
Ngunit hindi pa nalalagyan
Ng tamang wakas.
Siguro dahil hinahanap pa ng mga bida
Ang tamang panahon
Para lagyan ng tamang karugtong
Ang katuloy ng istorya.
May alam akong isang kwento
At hinihintay ko pa ang kahihinatnan
Ng istoryang nasimulan.
Pagkatapos ng taglagas,
Ang mga bulaklak,
Muling yayabong ang mga pananim,
Magpapanibagong mukha ang mundo.
Ang mga nalantang talulot
Ay papalitan ng bago –
Tulad ng pagdating ng liwanag
Matapos ang dilim ng gabi.
At sabi, pagdating ng tagsibol
Ay muli kang paririto –
Kukulayan mong muli
Ang blak en wayt na mundo,
Ang paligid na kaygulo.
Kakambal ka ng tagsibol,
Kasabay mong darating
Ang pag-asang ikinubli ng ulap,
Ang bahagharing tinakpan ng dilim,
Ang ngiti sa malungkot na daigdig.
Kasabay mong darating ang tagsibol,
Hindi pa man ay nasasabik ko siyang hinihintay,
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