Graduation @ MindSay

Isn't it just amazing how time flies?

It feels like ages have passed since high school, yet only a few years have gone by.  Even this year has gone by so fast itself.  Wasn't it just yesterday that this year began?  It feels that a lifetime ago I started at the university that I'm at, but it hasn't been quite a year yet.  This summer feels like it just started yesterday, yet at the same time it's been here for years (that might be due to the relentless heat of summer).

Before I know it my senior year of college will begin and time will pick up speed, or slow dramatically with my anticipation.  Either way this rite of passage grows less distant every day.

Don't really know if there was a point to this.  Other than my nostalgia and being mesmerized by my own perception of time.

I graduated from PCI this afternoon with people that barely remember my name much less that I attended the same school with them around the same time. 

I graduated with high honors which is honestly a miracle.

I'm going back to school in three weeks for some kind of associates degree just so I can say I have a degree.

Josh and I plan on getting married around October 12th of this year.  We'll probably just go to the courthouse to get married in front of a few family members and then have a reception somewhere.  Nothing fancy and nothing big because Josh and I both happen to hate crowds and I freeze up in front of dozens of people watching me.  I'm the watcher and I get overwhelmed if I have too many people to observe all at once.

Work is work.  I enjoy it and all but I can't handle it full time for the simple fact that I'm always getting sick and I'm entirely too empathetic for my own good.  So I work between 15-20 hours a week, more if I think I can handle it.  Not sure how I'm going to handle working and going back to school.  We'll see.

Tabetha is due to have her baby around June 21st and I would really like to be there for my incoming niece's birth, but I'm not really sure if we'll have the money or the time to go.

My grandma is moving to Arizona where I have an aunt, an uncle, and a cousin.  I think she'll like it there better but I know I'm really going to miss her because I feel like she's the only family member (other than Tabetha) that even remotely cares about me.

I can't believe that Tabetha's son is going to be one in June and June is getting so close.  Where the hell is time going?

I had to close my bank account on Friday because the bank sucked ass... they were rude and expensive to deal with and fired a friend of ours for being Pagan.  Of course, they didn't come out and say it, but what American company would be brave enough to?

My parents decided it would be fun to claim me as a dependent on their taxes this year although I haven't lived with them in over two years.  I didn't find this out until I received a rejection notice from the IRS.  Now they owe the IRS over $300 because I made them re-file and fix their deliberate mistake.  For some reason, I feel guilty for making them pay such an amount for screwing me over and I know I shouldn't.  It's obviously easy to make me feel guilty.

I didn't take my medication for my diabetes for a couple months and paid for it in the end with a blood sugar of a whopping 558 this past Monday.  Also started on Zoloft to balance out my moods so it would be easier to quit smoking.  Only problem with that is the fact that it literally makes me sick now.  Spent the better part of Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday nights in the bathroom rather than sleeping.  Didn't take the Zoloft last night and slept like a rock, but for some odd reason I'm feeling really nauseous. 

Well, that's it for Farrah's general update. 

Have a pleasant night.

We've all come a long way. It's hard to think of what to say to all of you, because there's so much I want to say but it's difficult to get it all out.


I can't believe it's the end already, can you? It seems the beginning was just yesterday- day one as doe-eyed freshmen starting a whole new experience, walking the same halls. We probably all shared the same desire to get the hell out of that place. We all "knew" that it would "pass by fast", but I don't think we all understood how fast it would actually go. I think a lot of us kind of felt like it would last forever. You know, it's weird to think about it. When I was going through the years, it didn't seem that fast, but now that I'm here, it seems like it went by in the blink of an eye.


Some memories are gone, and some will always stay, but I think I'll look back fondly over my highschool years. I started HS as a scared social-anxiety-disordered freshman, and now I'm coming out as a more confident young adult (boy referring to myself as an adult will be weird). That has to say something, huh? There was no drama for me, which really helped make these 4 years good, and I never really got picked on. My teachers were good, too, and some were really amazing. Only one or two weren't very good.



Well, now the time is coming where we'll have to say goodbye to each other- it's just a week away. I bet a lot of us are going to promise to stay in touch, and maybe we will, but maybe we won't. Maybe 20 years from now, we'll find our yearbooks and say, "I wonder what happened to Collene", or, "Man, I wish I could talk to Rae and see what the military was like for her."

One thing I'd like to say, while I have contact with all of you, is that I'm grateful to have met all of you. Everyone has helped shape my life in some way, and I'm thankful. I couldn't have known this is the path I would take, and I couldn't have known the people I'd meet along the way. What I do know is that I'm lucky to have taken this path and meet the people I did.



So, whether we're still talking a number of years down the road, thank you. It's been great! See you at the picnic & graduation!

Hannah, I already sent it, so don't even bother lecturing me on my attitude problem. I am completely aware of it.

 

 

 

 

 

I totally skipped the month of May. A lot has been going on in my neck of the woods. I have been able to pop on a few times here and there to check out what my peoples have been up to, but really have not had the time to do an actual entry. Here is my usual little bulleted summary of stuff in no particular order of happenings.

• Ben and I broke up. We are still great friends and see each other everyday. He is probably moving to Arizona because he can make nearly almost triple what he does here.
• helendaysauce had her baby!
• My cell phone is on the verge of dying. Evidently a lot of moisture got into it and fucked it up hardcore. I didn't know what to do, so Ben and I went to the Alltel in Merrill seeing as there are no Alltels in Wausau. The dick working asked me "Are you sure this is an Alltel phone?". Uh, yeah...I wouldn't be bringing it to you if it wasn't. It is now working, but hit and miss. Of course, I don't have insurance on it and I have over a year left in my contract.
• It is Woodchuck season again!
• I finally went to the doctor for my anxiety and depression. The doctor put me on Fluoxetine and I am to call him in two weeks to let him know how it is going. So far I am not feeling any different except I am now sleeping through the night.
• Going on two months of overtime at work and people are really getting sick of it; not the pay, but working the long hours and not getting a thank you. Four ten hour days for sure; an occassional fifth ten hour day or a half day is thrown in there.
• My brother graduated from college.
• I have been looking for different fulltime employment since about Thanksgiving and haven't had much luck. Not really expecting much out there now with the current state of the economy.
• I was off of work at the video store for medical reasons and went back in the begining of May to let the manager know I was able to come back to work. He told me that because he didn't know when I was going to be coming back, he hired a bunch of people and now he didn't even have the hours to give them. Is it that hard to give me a call and be like, "Hey Sara, this is Shaun. I was wondering if you had a possible timeline for when you would be coming back. I am looking to be hiring more people and wanted to make sure you were coming back before I started interviewing."
• My brother's band Flash Back has been playing at a bar in Rapids on a regular basis and now is going to be playing there every third Saturday of the month.
• Will be seeing Seether and REO Speedwagon this summer at the fair.
• Had pink-eye. I was really hoping it was just allergies, but of course it couldn't be. Plus, I have never had goopy eyes with allergies, so I knew it was a long shot. The whole week prior to my pink-eye, five out of the seven kids in my classroom had the whole pink-eye like symptoms; none of their doctors would confirm it, but they were treating it with drops just to be on the safe side. Yeah, try to tell me none of them had pink-eye and I ended up with it -- in BOTH eyes.
• I really want to see NKOTB when they tour this summer.
• Brought my bike up from my parents' place. I haven't ridden it much yet. I really need to ride from the apartment to work to see how long it is going to take me to ride to work.
• Might be heading back to the Twin Cities this summer and head back to IKEA and go to the Hard Rock Cafe. I will call ahead and make sure that they have the Lillberg couch before I go.