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Time for that Elusive Update Entry!

Hey guys.  So.  Reading back those last few entries, I left you all while I was in a pretty dark place in my life.  But here I am to update!


Since last time I posted an entry, several things have happened:

- I was given a really awesome part-time job at a store that I love doing something that I love infinitely more.

- My financial situation has improved, if only slightly… However, it’s far better than it was since last entry.

- My old Camry finally sacrificed its 2nd transmission to the gods and I had to borrow another POS car from my stepbrother.

- I got a new car.

- I’ve come ever-closer to figuring out what I want to do with my life.


So let’s break down them bullet points, eh?


In late September, I started a job with Lowes Foods, a privately-owned grocery store chain pretty much relegated to North and South Carolina.  They’ve been around since 1952 (the original founder of Lowes Home Improvement had two sons; one took over the hardware chain and the other started a grocery store chain) and they had always been “meh.” until they polled their customers and decided upon an intensive remodeling plan around 2013-2014.  Instead of your usual humdrum grocery store experience, they would offer exceptional customer service and unique takes on common grocery store offerings.  Surrounding the typical grocery store middle is the perimeter of “concept departments”: Sammy’s Sandwiches, Breadcrumb Bakery, Smokehouse Meats, SausageWorks, Sunmill Wines, Boxcar Coffee, and Pick ‘N’ Prep.  Each one offers upscale offerings of your typical grocery fare at a slight premium but with the added bonus of 1) Stimulating visuals for the kids (Boxcar Coffee looks like it was built into an actual train boxcar), and 2) Something you can get that no other grocery store chain offers.  It’s pretty cool (even though it’s getting increasingly corporate because of the extreme interest in new markets).


That’s where my new job comes in.  We’re one of the newest concepts: The Beer Den.  Not only do we have the largest in-store selection of packaged beer of any local grocery store but we also offer draft beer on tap for in-store consumption while you shop.  That’s right.  I’m a bartender in a grocery store.  The job is super easy, it’s a passion of mine, and I’m dedicated to the craft (both literally and figuratively).  After 6 months, I’ve already built up a base of regulars that regularly ask for me (case in point: A regular bought me a beer after work last night just because I was at the bar after I clocked out – this routinely happens).  I absolutely love the job.


That brings me to the next bullet point: Finances.  So, I got hired on for part time.  I’m still PT.  I’m working on getting full-time hours either at the store or between two jobs but not a whole lot of needs have come up so far.  That said, we’ve had some changes, so I’m hoping I can swing some more hours.  Either way, it’s better than last time I updated and I’m optimistic.  Plus, I now feel confident in both my social skills and also my bartending skills to take on a FT bartending job elsewhere, if need be.


And then November happened.  Around mid-Nov, my ‘98 Camry finally gave up the bullet and bit the ghost.  My 2nd, rebuilt transmission gave out and it basically instantaneously became junk.  Luckily, my stepbrother had a beater vehicle available for borrow, so I borrowed it for about 3 months.  Olllld Kia Rio.  Just as shitty.  It was much appreciated but it, too, had mechanical issues.  But my stepbro and I worked through them a little until, finally about a month ago, it went *kaput* as well.


Enter my Grandma.


My Grandma passed in early 2014 and left me some money to work with.  Given the timing of everything, my Dad, stepmom, and I decided to go look at cars.  Long story short, I used the money she left me to buy a brand new 2017 Toyota RAV4.  I couldn’t be happier.  I own a brand new car, outright, and nly have to pay taxes and insurance on it.  It’s wonderful.  Thank you, Grandma.


This brings me to the last bulletpoint and the most important: How my life has changed and how I’ve figured out what I want to do.  Since starting this job at Lowes Foods, I’ve figured out that the most lucrative and potentially financially-successful part of my passions is in the craft beer industry.  So I’m actively working on growing from this bartending job into working for a craft brewery.  I think I’d be pretty great at being a sales rep and/or a merchandiser.  Basically, I want to be the guy to go out to multiple venues a week and represent the brewery’s brand, whichever that might be.  Having new, reliable transportation is a massive plus, as well.


So here I am; still kind of struggling but in a much brighter place than I was 7 months ago.  I hope you all are doing just as well if not better and I wish you all the best.


Thanks for reading, MindSay family.


Much love.


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