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1 hr ago / @mel674 +
(no subject) OK- Finally got the “unofficial official” verbal clarification from the principal for next…
7 hrs ago / @almost23 +
(no subject) I have a burning desire to see the Lion King. Maybe the girls will join me tonight for a Disney movie…
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Another stupid thing is, the ones that have told me i had a son when i was about 15. Hey, i doubt it. if i did, i would know it and have a child, but i don’t. My whole life is constant realistic nightmares. All the moments that they had me in, all those crazy created moments of having me sit in groups of strangers. The problem is, i have no idea how it all got started or how i got to those people in the first place and why have i all my life been unable to remember anything important. the idiot boy from class bugs me now when i think back to the time when some others tried to tell me he is special. i say his no more special than all the other kids. He is not related to me and i don’t know him. all there are are those strange memories/visions when some smartass tried to convince me i have a son. i am so sick and tired of all of those scenes. Moreover, i remember some strange moments about the Daim chocolate from childhood and about the local small bookstore. I remember the darkness of the store Selver and the cafeteria Viiger. And there’s so much more. How do the people do that? What got it all started?


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(no subject) People do have talents of driving me crazier than i already am. Many moments seem to be repeating…
18 hrs ago / @ontheway +
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21 hrs ago / @mel674 +
Woo my brain hurts! I’m making it with a 4.0 in school still somehow, I feel like I’m being…
yesterday / @Millenia +
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yesterday / @almost23 +
(no subject) “I can never read all of the books I want; I can never be all of the people I want and live all…
yesterday / @almost23 +
(no subject) HA- solving problems one phone call at a time. All ya gotta do is call child support and poke around…
yesterday / @almost23 +
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It’s amazingly ridiculous what happens when the clouds and darkness turn to sunshine and warmth (figuratively AND literally). The sun came out after a crazy foggy morning. Like, we haven’t had sun for DAYS… possibly even a couple of weeks. It’s been SEVERAL DAYS.

DAMN, I just feel rejuvenated. I just looked outside and decided to make a “to do” list for tonight!


It includes running…!!! AND reading … AND cleaning!!

And damnit- I think they’ll all actually get done! BECAUSE I’m motivated. It’s like the sun has the power to pull me out of the stupid funk I sometimes find myself in. The fine line between “this sucks” and “I really truly think I might have slight depression for realz”.

And now I’m all “nope. I don’t think I do. I think I just needed a healthy dose of Vitamin C and that’ll do the trick.


See, it also does crazy things like make me reconsider not applying for the job in KC and all sorts of other things that I probably shouldn’t do at the moment.


I’ve actually decided to for surely just do the 2nd grade deal here (I think that’s the grade that’ll be available for next year), if at all just for the experience! I mean, that way I’ll be totally more marketable in the “teaching world”. I’ll have preschool, 2nd grade, special education, yadda yadda yadda. :) Sure can’t hurt anything, ya know!?


OK- but for real. On a sidenote that’s kind of a bummer and a bring-me-down. WHY in the hell can’t I just get some child support, guys?! I mean, for fucks sake here!!!! I’m RAISING TWO CHILDREN IN MY LIFE, CAN YOU THROW ME A FRICKIN BONE HERE, WORLD?!?!?!ugh. :D


yesterday / @almost23 +
Fuck alarm clocks I just want to be able to get decent sleep. Child won't go to bed until 1130 pm…
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yesterday / @insanereid +
Welcome to the "real world" she said to me, condescendingly Good news/bad news Good: I…
yesterday / @mystupidmouth +
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yesterday / @ontheway +
(no subject) So tonight. i guess I'm just lonely??? Idk kyle snap chatted me earlier, which I would…
yesterday / @almost23 +
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GHah I had an awesome time in Minneapolis.


Like I might have mentioned before (I’m not sure if I did or not)… I got to meet up with my friend from high school. I love meeting up with her and hanging out/visiting. :) She’s just a breathe of fresh air, she is.


So, her and her fiance apparently have picked a date for their wedding and have a venue booked and all that good stuff that comes with being engaged/getting married. She unofficially, but in person, invited me to both her bachelorette party “if you’d call it that” she said and also her wedding. Which is way cool.
The bachelorette party is going to just be laid back and chill on a rooftop by a pool with drinks and ladies. So, that sounds way fun! Plus, I’m hoping/betting that some of the girls she hung out with QUITE frequently (and I hung out with sometimes) are going to be there. Which makes me even more excited- because, frankly, I sometimes miss seeing people from that era. I loved my class and I love whenever we get those far and few between chances to visit with each other and catch up! So I’m so damn excited. PLUS, I will get to go sans children.


And that means maybe I’ll get to check out some of the more adult things like breweries and more book stores (yes!) and stuff that my children aren’t entirely fond of and that aren’t necessarily child-friendly. I’m just so dang stoked.

THEN, her wedding should be way great, too! I forget where it is, exactly, some venue in some part of Minneapolis but it’s kind of around a bunch of warehouses and next to (maybe?) a brewery. So, that’ll be great. AND- even better, it’s an ADULT ONLY wedding. ;) 18+


My girls [still] think she was joking about it. Poor little ladies, she’s not. It definitely is an adult-only wedding. evilgrin ((insert evil grin))



2 days ago / @almost23 +
(no subject) The girls and I had a beautiful time in Minneapolis. It’s funny (ish?) how you can take a…
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2 days ago / @almost23 +
too damn much I got a $450 bill from my pain management doctor today. For the fucking drug test I’m…
2 days ago / @xRainbows4eveRx +
(no subject) I'm going to be 28 and I need to stop letting my anxiety run my life. I need to do more for Me.…
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2 days ago / @insanereid +
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2 days ago / @mel674 +
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2 days ago / @mel674 +
florida life update Just a little update because I know a year from now, when I come back to read this, I…
3 days ago / @chel2thec +
(no subject) This morning I woke up to a dense fog advisory on my phone and a reported temp of 55 degrees. Then I…
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3 days ago / @divine +
scraps recently, john told me that he didn't think i needed any support. "you're a strong…
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3 days ago / @morte +
Instagram Posts Friday: allude to my own bisexuality and my coming to terms with it via vague song lyric in…
3 days ago / @mystupidmouth +
(no subject) just woke up from a dream where i'm living next door to these people, really nosey, presumptuous…
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4 days ago / @morte +
If I was granted 3 wishes. One of them would probably would be that this plays before I ejaculate.
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4 days ago / @cornholio23 +
ingrained pretension i have a problem with judgmental thinking. i really can't help myself. the…
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5 days ago / @morte +
Time for that Elusive Update Entry!

Hey guys.  So.  Reading back those last few entries, I left you all while I was in a pretty dark place in my life.  But here I am to update!


Since last time I posted an entry, several things have happened:

- I was given a really awesome part-time job at a store that I love doing something that I love infinitely more.

- My financial situation has improved, if only slightly… However, it’s far better than it was since last entry.

- My old Camry finally sacrificed its 2nd transmission to the gods and I had to borrow another POS car from my stepbrother.

- I got a new car.

- I’ve come ever-closer to figuring out what I want to do with my life.


So let’s break down them bullet points, eh?


In late September, I started a job with Lowes Foods, a privately-owned grocery store chain pretty much relegated to North and South Carolina.  They’ve been around since 1952 (the original founder of Lowes Home Improvement had two sons; one took over the hardware chain and the other started a grocery store chain) and they had always been “meh.” until they polled their customers and decided upon an intensive remodeling plan around 2013-2014.  Instead of your usual humdrum grocery store experience, they would offer exceptional customer service and unique takes on common grocery store offerings.  Surrounding the typical grocery store middle is the perimeter of “concept departments”: Sammy’s Sandwiches, Breadcrumb Bakery, Smokehouse Meats, SausageWorks, Sunmill Wines, Boxcar Coffee, and Pick ‘N’ Prep.  Each one offers upscale offerings of your typical grocery fare at a slight premium but with the added bonus of 1) Stimulating visuals for the kids (Boxcar Coffee looks like it was built into an actual train boxcar), and 2) Something you can get that no other grocery store chain offers.  It’s pretty cool (even though it’s getting increasingly corporate because of the extreme interest in new markets).


That’s where my new job comes in.  We’re one of the newest concepts: The Beer Den.  Not only do we have the largest in-store selection of packaged beer of any local grocery store but we also offer draft beer on tap for in-store consumption while you shop.  That’s right.  I’m a bartender in a grocery store.  The job is super easy, it’s a passion of mine, and I’m dedicated to the craft (both literally and figuratively).  After 6 months, I’ve already built up a base of regulars that regularly ask for me (case in point: A regular bought me a beer after work last night just because I was at the bar after I clocked out – this routinely happens).  I absolutely love the job.


That brings me to the next bullet point: Finances.  So, I got hired on for part time.  I’m still PT.  I’m working on getting full-time hours either at the store or between two jobs but not a whole lot of needs have come up so far.  That said, we’ve had some changes, so I’m hoping I can swing some more hours.  Either way, it’s better than last time I updated and I’m optimistic.  Plus, I now feel confident in both my social skills and also my bartending skills to take on a FT bartending job elsewhere, if need be.


And then November happened.  Around mid-Nov, my ‘98 Camry finally gave up the bullet and bit the ghost.  My 2nd, rebuilt transmission gave out and it basically instantaneously became junk.  Luckily, my stepbrother had a beater vehicle available for borrow, so I borrowed it for about 3 months.  Olllld Kia Rio.  Just as shitty.  It was much appreciated but it, too, had mechanical issues.  But my stepbro and I worked through them a little until, finally about a month ago, it went *kaput* as well.


Enter my Grandma.


My Grandma passed in early 2014 and left me some money to work with.  Given the timing of everything, my Dad, stepmom, and I decided to go look at cars.  Long story short, I used the money she left me to buy a brand new 2017 Toyota RAV4.  I couldn’t be happier.  I own a brand new car, outright, and nly have to pay taxes and insurance on it.  It’s wonderful.  Thank you, Grandma.


This brings me to the last bulletpoint and the most important: How my life has changed and how I’ve figured out what I want to do.  Since starting this job at Lowes Foods, I’ve figured out that the most lucrative and potentially financially-successful part of my passions is in the craft beer industry.  So I’m actively working on growing from this bartending job into working for a craft brewery.  I think I’d be pretty great at being a sales rep and/or a merchandiser.  Basically, I want to be the guy to go out to multiple venues a week and represent the brewery’s brand, whichever that might be.  Having new, reliable transportation is a massive plus, as well.


So here I am; still kind of struggling but in a much brighter place than I was 7 months ago.  I hope you all are doing just as well if not better and I wish you all the best.


Thanks for reading, MindSay family.


Much love.


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5 days ago / @divine +
I'd hit that Gerald McRaney...This is a pretty good movie too.
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Guys, this could be me. I wish I were lying when I said that this is the story of my life. I’m glad…
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